At the end of the day, we are left to look back over our actions and choices. We stand in the wake of our decisions and mull over the words that cannot be undone. We look back and wonder how things might be different, how we have altered our future from what it might possibly have been.
Maybe you don't think about that, but I do, on occasion, that is.
I have a tendency to look back and reflect on choices that I made and wonder how different my life might have been if I had chosen the opposite. I wonder if there would have been a choice down the road that would bring me to this same spot had I taken the left turn instead of the right. I know that there is no sense in dwelling on the past. And, honestly, I wouldn't say that I am "dwelling." It's more like "reminiscing" quite frequently.... which sounds like dwelling, I suppose.
I realize that there is nothing that you can do or say to change what has been done in the past. I often remind myself that I live in the present, not the past, and dwelling on the past is only going to make my present choices more complicated than what my over-analyzing mind already makes them out to be.
The present is full of newness and opportunity. Each new second sheds light on the future one. I cannot help but to think about the future when considering the present, or the past for that matter. The future is full of the unknown which is exciting and terrifying and magical all rolled into one. There are adventures and thrills along every path, and the simple thought of not knowing where it all leads is exhilarating!
I am filled with critical thinking when I dwell on the past too much.
I am filled with a sense of calm when I think about the present.
And, I am filled with a sense of desire and drive when it comes to the future.
I want to live in the moment while anticipating the future in the wake of the past. (if that make any sense, at all)
I often remind myself that the future is what we make it and the past is said and done. The only say that I can have on any of that is now- the choices I make, the words that I say, the decisions that I contemplate- are what will shape my roller coaster of a life.
It's a journey, but it doesn't have to be a boring and predictable one!
